I worked for our 3 southern counties newspapers for years. We went thru several buyouts, with no problem. Then last year, around July we had another company buy us out. I had that instant bad, gut feeling that something wasn’t right and that it wasn’t in my best interest to stay.. even with all the positive remarks being made always, “nothing will change” “work is going to be as normal” yet.. within the first 5 days of their ownership I watched them fire someone who was a director of a department, who I may not of on a personal level liked but I knew she was good at her job, she handled her job the way it was supposed too.. it was a shock to all of us. It was a disgusting way to send her off. She wasn’t allowed to say goodbye to her own employees.. that’s when I started applying elsewhere.
Thankfully, I did.. in a bitter sweet way there was not a “perfect ending” to this situation. I found a job with a company I initially was ecstatic to be apart of, I was leaving the “print advertising” to go to “online advertising” the pay was shit, so was the commission but it was so close to home.. I was there for almost a year. I do not like “job hopping” or it appearing that way on my resume more then anything. I like to learn my job, be the best at it and be able to go how an feel accomplished.
Well.. she changed my position. Changed what I was doing, I still stayed. The final straw was that I was unhappy, I was working even when I got home because she was so demanding with sales, that I ended up taking another job. I felt that relief again, until this new position was a type of job I’ve never had any experience in, I was eager to be trained.. but that is where that company failed. I was thrown into it, no training, no assistance. I was expected to write up 200+ page government proposals on an industry I was so unexperienced in. I expressed to my boss that I felt I was falling behind, that I feared not having this experience or training was hindering me from working on anything. It was all ignored.. that’s when it got personal for me. My anxiety has never been an issue when it came to work, I was used to having deadlines, stress, all of it. But this I felt like I was digging my own grave because I could picture months later me still walking around not even the slightest bit in the loop on what my job was, so again.. the job hunting started, this began to hurt my ego itself.. here I am, 25.. I didn’t picture myself “hunting for jobs” still, I had pictured being settled somewhere, advancing within the company, an it seemed that each job I had, I was furthering myself from that hope. I took the position first because the money was unreal, which should of flagged something wasn’t right here.. I put money before my confidence in if I was capable of handling the position, I was sure with training I would be, but again, time after time my request for training was brushed aside.. after a month an a half, I knew what I had to do, start hunting for another job yet again.
So that is what I did, I found another job, the pay was ok, there was things stated such as vacation, paid time off, benefits. So I thought to myself “I can do this” she mentioned her husband and her ran the company, both did estimates on painting homes. I was to run the entire office, no one else there to manage phones, no one there to help do any of it – no problem. I handled it all, my breaking point was they began arguing as husband and wife along with being owners of the same business, I started getting put in the middle, I was always being micromanaged, I put up with it all. Then a few weeks in, I watched them fire someone so abruptly that I didn’t agree with she was doing her job, just the contradicting they did made it seem as if she wasn’t. So it then really was just me in the office. No matter if I following there SOP list to a T I still was someone needing to do this or that, which is expected when you run an office. The female owner, I had almost no problems with. The male owner, was one of those “wanna-be-charmers” who could compliment your work and then turn around an insult in you in “nice way” and you’ll be damned if you have a “conversation” with him, and he pauses as if its your turn to speak, because the second you do say something you get “LET ME JUST TALK, I NEED TO BE HEARD I CANT BE HEARD IF YOUR NOT TALKING” thats when I put the breaks on, I dont care if you sign my checks or not, you need to treat with me the respect you’d want anyone I managed to treat me with. I put up with it for 4 months. Finally had my breaking point, he was making errors, passing blame on me, his wife would have me working on something he completely took over yet I was supposed to get it all done. On the day I gave my notice. There had been an accident on my way into the office, I contacted them an stated i’d be late there is traffic from an accident, yadda yadda yadda – no response. I get there, he is in the office waiting for me, then goes on a speech about in his day – when he was working in the union that if you weren’t there when the whistle blew you were replaced and so on, I let him talk. Didn’t say anything until he was done, I explained that I was not in any way trying to “take advantage of being late” due to an accident, to sum it up a little quicker. He leaves, then continues to call the office with complaints of me, and so on. So when his wife – the other business owner came in at the end of the day, I wanted to talk.. So we do, I explain my frustration of no matter what I felt I wasn’t doing enough yet always being “praised” on how well I was doing.. I explained how her husband was being, how it is the reason most of my normal routine task were not being completed. I then explained that I was beginning to be unhappy enough to start job hunting (I didn’t imply I had any interviews lined up, even though I did) I told her that I had several interviews after work hours that I was interested in, but that I wanted to be sure I brought it to my boss’s attention before making any decision.
Welp. She didn’t like that, told me to get my things and go if I was looking for another job she didn’t need me. – So off I went. Before I even made it home I was being asked to commit to 30 days and they’d pay me $5 MORE HOURLY. (feeling slightly insulted) I said let me think about it, I had at that point landed a interview for basically a management position without a management title – accounts receivable/ payable/ director admin asst. I was offered the position on the spot – just didn’t know when I could start, so I informed my previous employers, that I couldn’t guarantee 30 days, but that I would work until a job was found, that they’d have to be flexible with interviews an more, waited.. no response… hours later I get “if you can’t do 30 days we dont need you back” so I moved on from the situation knowing that this is the busiest time of the year, that they need SOMEONE in the office, that they need someone to do payroll, scheduling for production and estimates – but the relief I felt knowing it wasn’t me who had to do it all for them with how they acted was nice to have. This is obviously a summed up version of events that let me to leaving them, I one, wasn’t giving a notice when I sat down to talk I wanted to see what could be done in my current position before job hopping again.
I start tomorrow working for a HOA Senior Citizen community, It probably wont be my forever job. But it is going to get me thru for awhile thats for sure.
The hardest thing about working these days, is they want someone in my age range however they want my experience to be twice my age, its a never ending circle. I hate that since leaving the newspaper, since the newspaper sold, made so many changes, fired over 30 people that it’s not even the same place I loved working. I am over the “looking for a job” mode.
Here is my rant for the day. Thanks ❤